One a long time ago…

I once was listening to a Psychic on a podcast I love listening to, The Unnormal Paranormal podcast, and this psychic said that while there is reincarnation it is unusual. He said that the folks who came back did so because they needed redemption for something terrible they did in their previous life and when he reads them or talks to them, the one distinguishing thing about them is that they don’t want to be here in the time they’re in. 

It’s of interest to me because I have always believe I’ve been born in the wrong time. For as long as I can remember, I felt I belonged in the 1920’s. That time period just feels the most comfortable to me, from the music to the lifestyle to, just everything. I just don’t feel like I belong now. Life is too fast, people are too rude, there is no genuine pleasure in life anymore, that I can tell. 

I spend much of my life slowing it down. Everything anymore is way, way too fast. There is no personal interaction, there is no comradely. If people do interact, they are rude and thoughtless. Common courtesy isn’t that common anymore. People dot feel incline to care for anyone but themselves. 

That’s my take, anyway. I could be just as delusional as the res of the world. 

Fizz

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Kindness in a mean, mean world…

Part of this blog is a way to express my emotions, rather than sucking up all the energy from the world around me and pushing them down deep. Repressing emotions, for an Empath such as myself, is a necessity. The internalization of emotions from another person by an Empath can lead to a multitude of health problems. Here are but a few: undefined Anxiety, Migraine, Stomach Pain, High Blood Pressure, Angina, Depression, Lethargy, Sadness, spontaneous Weeping, Withdrawal from life, etc.

One of the things that is hardest for an Empath is the sudden onset of intense emotion for no known reason. Last week, sitting in my office I was just fine, when suddenly I was effected with a huge influx of intense sadness to the point of weeping. It came right out of the blue. It came from the center of my being and felt so intense I was in physical pain. I was able to say to my self “Is this mine?” My answer was really easy, No it was not mine. I was sitting there working on a spreadsheet and while I might have been bored to tears, it wasn’t worth crying for and It was not mine. It was an amazing epiphany because to this point in my life’s journey, I was able to say no, this wasn’t my emotion and was able to let go of the feelings and return to my own emotions. 

As I re-read this I think that people who are governed by logic and do not get overwhelmed by any feeling, let alone their own, will likely laugh out loud. It sounds rediculuous for someone to say that they take other peoples intense emotions for them. If we think back, however, to “cave,an” days when humans were more in touch with the land as hunters and getherers, this type of people were quite important for they were the ones would could be counted on to raise an alarm when life went sideways. The logical folks were the ones who increased efficiency on hunting and technology. They, too, were needed to improve life and make it easier for a group to survive together. I have no proof of course, but it has a logic to it and makes sense to me. I’m not all woo-woo after all, I have a degree from university in a science. On of the best things about that degree was that they tought me to question everything. That’s what the scientific method is all about, consistent provable and measurable responses. While I can’t prove that I am feeling these things, I can certainly measure them and repeatedly draw them from others. 

My hope, is that I help others, though to be honest, I think I’ll likely just get an abundance of critics who think i’m nuts and have no compunction about telling me so.

Fizz

 

 

 

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Positivity

I have a huge need, now that the whole world has gone nuts, to release some of ,y emotional turmoil. I’ve missed writing and no long carry the fear of blogging that I’ve been carrying. I left that luggage in the lost and found and hope it doesn’t recognize me as I occasionally walk by.

Today, I went to one of my favorite places, the Dr.s office. You might think that this is a strange thing, to love going to the Dr office. Well, it really not the office per se, but the building itself. This place has a strong hold of American veterans. I love them, one and all and I will run wildly to shake the hand of anyone there who is wearing their veteran hat.

Todays victim was both Korean and a Korean War veteran, of ’53. And when I said “Thank you so much for your service” his response was one I’ve never had before. Simply “Thank you for this beautiful country.”

That truly made me proud. With all of the hate that is going on in this country now, and he’s is still great full for the life the USA has given him.

It makes me think that I should start a project where I take a pic of myself with every Veteran I thank. It’s seems like they should be remembered by someone other than family when they’re gone.

Fizz

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I’m an Optimistic Romantic

I find that the more things are up in the air, the more I gravitate to my “true self”. My true self is a romantic and an optimist. Of course we all have some self serving fatalistic stuff in our inner being mixed with a little despair. 

I find that the toughest part about being a romantic at heart, as am I, is that our ideal is so far above what mere mortals (non-romantics) conceive is love. We romantics spend much of our lives alone and lonely because of our dedication to that perfect love. We are all so unique that no one has the same finger prints… Not even identical twins. There are over 6 Billion people on earth. So, finding your one true love in 6 Billion minus 1 people may take some time. 
Ironically, the older I get, the more I believe that the romance is truly unattainable but the more closely I cling to my beliefs in that love. Only time will tell if this is a segment that will appear in my life’s storyline. I hope on.

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Ballad of a Soldier

I am a soldier. My name is freedom.
I walk in the valley of the shadow of death.
I fear no evil.
I stand for courage, compassion, dignity, and life.

My love is democracy.
I am the light in darkness.
I am the sword of the meek.
I do not hate.

My code is Justice.
I do not pale in the face of danger.
I will not turn a blind eye.
I do not tolerate transgression.
I am an Eagle.

I empower the weak.
I march boldly.
I cry quietly.
I sleep lightly.
I love unconditionally.

Call me in the night,
I will come.
Pray for me in the darkness,
I will bring the lamp.
Whisper my name,
and I will hear.

I am the blood of innocence.
I have not one face, but many.
I am a mother, a father, a son & a daughter.
I am no one and I am everyone.

I am a soldier and Freedom is my name.
By Juli Bailey
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Giving Back to the Community

About a week ago, I applied for the position of 911 Teleoperator. In my cover letter I spoke of the need to give back to my community, hoping not to be dismissed because I’m of a completely different background than the typical applicant. 
I received word that my application has not been weeded out, i.e. that it will move forward and I may actually be called for an interview. 
I really hope I get the opportunity to do this job. I know it will be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but I think it will also be so very rewarding. To have the opportunity to be there for someone who may be going thru the worst moments of their life… Well… So very valuable. 
So, keep me I. Your prayers. 

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Hopes and Dreams

I’m feeling a little down today. About 3 weeks ago I went on a first and second interview both of which went very well. I hit it off with two of the 3 folks I would have been working with and felt that the other fella we could work well together, though we were really divergent personality types. 

I hadn’t heard anything for a while, even though the recruiter and I were in contact. The fellas at the perspective company said that they were really busy. But the reality was that this was not the case. They told the recruiter that they found another candidate with stronger engineering skills. Though I wasn’t told, I’m almost sure that a friend was let go right about the time I had my second interview and they decided to hire him/her. 

I’m very, very disappointed. There just aren’t many jobs out there. The last job I applied to had 100+ other folks applying for the job. The one before that was 150+ candidates. There is no way to get a job with 150 other candidates applying. The reality is that there are roughly 100,000 people looking for jobs in the energy industry and I am one of them. There are very few energy jobs out there; I’ve seen only 3 job postings in between the time I started interviewing 3 weeks ago and now. 

I will admit that I’m frightened about my future. I admit to maybe feelIng sorry for myself a little bit. Most of all, I’m worried. I’ve done everything I was supposed to do my whole life: Graduate high school, go to college, graduate college, work as a professional, do my best at everything I committed to doing… And here I am on my 4th layoff. I wonder how I have gotten to this point when I’ve always had top notch reviews and gotten commendations for my hard, high quality work. I have a good start at my retirement, but a long ways to go. I have a large auto payment, a house payment and a few other bills that require payment and I wonder how I’m going to meet those payments. 

So, as it has been for my whole life, the adventure continues with the peaks and valleys, where I’m in a valley. 

Fizz

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