I looked in the mirror this morning and noticed that my face is much fuller than it was even a month ago. Drat! Dang that upped dosage of Lyr!c@. It seems that every pill I’m on, and I’m on many for this Fibro-Myalgia, cause weight gain. In the last two years, I’ve added 20+ pounds. I doubt I’ll get them off.
Such a source of consternation for me. I have been trying to work on my self image. I know that I’m the most critical person there is of my body and what I look like. I have been my whole life, even when I was young and thin in those cheerleading pictures. I think that this is a woman’s lot in life. Papa doesn’t understand, bless him, because men are wired differently. No worries, I’ve sworn off bagels, doughnuts & cookies for a while. I can’t swear off Brownies, papa is making a batch today.
I’ve read all of your wonderful comments. You are all so dear to me. I swear, I’ll get to each and every one of you this week. Sherry suggested a bubble bath and I could really go for that. I’ve considered remodeling my bathroom and putting in a fancy pants tub that I can actually fit in. I detest sitting in a tub where only 1/2 of my body is covered. I so want to be completely covered in a tub where I can soak for hours and hours.
There’s a thing called “Fibro Fog” and it’s a foggie version of life that happens to people with Fibro. It’s hard to cut through so that you can do anything. I’ve managed to find a way to cut through to do my work, but am having the darnedest time with other things, like following conversations and just having the brain trip and fall mid sentence. I’m still working on how to deal with it, I’ll find a way to get there, just little bits at a time.
April 18th I head out to Ft. Walton Beach at 6:30 AM in the morning. Well, I leave earlier but I’ll be picking up my friend Mary at that time. I want to get there in plenty of time for check in. I’m going to soak in the sun all week long. I can assure you that this is far better for me than anything on earth. I am seriously considering retiring in this area so that I can go to the beach several times a week.
Well, my lunch hour is over… off to resolve software bugs and write software bugs and also play office politics, too…
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