My hypnotherapist has said that I need to let go and not let this make me a bitter b!tch. I see his point heartily, but realise that it’s so much harder to do than to actually do.
My hypnotherapist is a hoot. He was like “If I thought that there was a chance that I could throw you out this window and you not be injured and you might ACTUALLY get it… I’d do it. But, I really don’t think that I can get in thru your thick head!” The problem is, I prolly wouldn’t have.
He’s trying to get me not to dig in and be a stubborn A$$ on principle when it’s doing no good but making me upset and sick. Since I’ve ate minimally for a week, I may very well get really, really sick.
So today, I’m going to lunch by myself. I’m taking a book and heading to the steak house for some red meat and some good vegetables… broccoli. (I LOVE broccoli) And, I’ll be away from here so my life isn’t all consuming with this place. AND, if I spend money on it, I’ll likely eat it, which means my health won’t totally decline.
Will I be working as hard as I was? Nope. And… I really AM trying hard not to be a bitter b!tch because it really hurts no one but myself. It’s really, really freakin’ hard. That’s something that I would naturally do and so I have to short circuit that whole process.
And, I’ve made a few adjustments in my professional life. I’m really trying hard to have colleagues be colleagues and my friends be people that are totally separate. And, I don’t need a lot of friends in the real, I like my online buddies better… youse guys really do care about what’s going on in my life. So I’ll be investing more time in YOU! 😀 So… if you’ve seen comments on my Facebook account about divorcing, that would be what I’m doing.
OK… I’m off to do damage to my work that I have to get done. Have a marvelous Monday and to quote an old Scottish proverb: “Do your best; leave the rest. T’will all come right some day or night.”
Fizz
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Mmm. I haven’t been around on house calls for quite some time and appear to have missed something important. You seem quite cranky. I have some professional advice about it. Don’t do that.Peace, Doc
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Do not divorce yourself from friendships co-workers. Just blog friends will coop you up and separate you from the real world. This sounds like a stubborn streak girly. Life is too short to hold grudges and be filled with anxiety. Jist shake it all off, you can have it all. Sugar is better than vinegar. Did I get through to you or are you gonna throw me out the window? LOL!! Roll with the punches and and put ah smile on. There ya go! I think you need to plan a vacation. Ya, I think you need to unwind. Relax and please eat, alright? Smile and know others are uninformed that you are special and you rock!
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Do your best – a good motto / guideline. Love that you’ll be spending more times with us. :)
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well sometimes you have to do what you have to do…and you are right…your true friends will stick by you…by the way do i have you added to my FB account??♥~♥ :oD because you shared a smile…someone’s day got brighter… :oD ♥~♥
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I do echo echo what Shelly C has written. Please be careful of that eating thing. I tookit to extreems, ue to lack of food in the house and lived on just water for two months. Depression ha a strong hold on me. Depression=feeling helpless and hopeless. I nearly lost my life overthis eating thing and I am not anorecxic. You are smart enough to pull yourself out of this as in writing resumes to see what else is out there. While you remain in your present job, just walk away from the negative when you can. I want you protected. For now the only one who can do that is you. I am with you, sweetie.Eileen
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I can really relate as I had similar problems when I worked. Now of course I have folks that I deal with through the club that drive me nuts sometimes. Instead of letting things fall apart I just step in and do them. It is really hard to change I know I have been working on it for years. I have a bad temper and for the past few years with the pain issues it was showing its ugly head again. Now that I am feeling so much better I am trying so hard to be calm. My mouth betrays me at times though. Things pop out and then I feel bad. It is hard to keep the co-worker/friend thing separate. My daughter has had some severe trials with this issue and I know I did also. I think it is a universal thing. The hard part is when you become supervisor of a friend. Fortunately my friend knew enough to keep it separate at work and did not try and take advantage. Have a better week.
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Get your resume updated! Then stop being so bitter! I know it’s hard but you are a very intelligent woman and might I had strong headed. It took many many years for me to understand that my co-workers are just that and not my friends. As much as I thought they were they are not. You have come such a long way! This week will be no tears at work week and will be the week that you are most proud of the work that you have accomplished. Don’t let them make you work any less harder than you can because then you will lose respect in yourself. We will forever be here for you and remember we here in the Mitten state would love for you to bring papa and the girls home.xoxoxoxoxo
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My prayers are with you dear friend. We’re all here for you. Enjoy your lunch. Big warm hugs
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Fizzzzz – what did I misss?? What is going on at work??LOVE the Scottish proverb – I will have to steal it!!God bless you!Teri
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Sounds like you trying to get on the right track. Good luck and we’re all here for you. Sherry said it for all of us. Enjoy your lunch and take it one day at a time.Hugs, Terry
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Sherry said it all for me. (HUG)
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I can only imagine what you are going through but just know I wish you the best. It is hard not to be bitter but in the end it only hurts you. Go out and enjoy your lunch and your day. Big HugsSherry
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