I was not going to post today. I was going to let the day slide and not write anything.

But then, I read Doc’s blog. And, I decided that his good rerun was so moving that I should write a post and acknowledge you and the various other things I’m thankful for.

First, I am thankful to Papa and the dogs. With out them, I would feel very much alone in the world, being down here in Houston by myself. Until he got here, I was very much alone and I didn’t do well with it, I was depressed a lot. Now, I’m not depressed a lot. This is a very good thing.

Secondly, but certianly no less, I am thankful for you. I have a group of friends here that are a better support system than anyone IRL (in real life). You folks always take my side, are indignity for me and are always there to help… if even from afar. This has done wonders for me and has gotten me thru may days of constant and considerable pain. If you’ve suffered for more than one day, you understand that day by day pain is something that can demoralize you to the point of serious depression. You have held me up so that I may continue and be a better person. Thank you for being you.

I am thankful for all the years I had Nana. I miss her terribly and wish she were here right now and am grateful for all the fun memories I have of her.

I’m grateful for my Mom and the funny stories she tells. I can always write her and tell her something silly or something rotten that happened to me and she always says just the right thing.

I am grateful for my belief in God, and then most especially Morbid Angel, because I thought that I had lost my faith in God. Joe helped me realize that while the pain may have broken my belief in God for that moment, that He was still a part of my life and helping me work thru the pain and getting to a better place. My belief in God and his dream for this Earth has always moved me to consistently help others and make this world what it should be.

Finally, I am thankful for living in a country where, as a woman, I am considered an equal member of the community/society. I am allowed to say and speak what I want. I am able to wear what I like and I am allowed to work. I do not have to have children if I do not wish to. I do not have to be married if I do not wish to. I am eternally grateful for the good fortune of being born in the USA.  I am grateful for the men and women who have lost their lives so that I may have these freedoms.

With pace and love,

— Fizz —

PS Enjoy these fishy scenes from my aquarium!

© "Fizz" 2008


About Fizz

*I'm a Northern Girl livin' in the South. *I graduated with a BS in Geophysics from Michigan Technological University (MTU). *I have critters: 2 dogs & 1 cat. *I love thunder and rain days. Too much sunshine gets on my nerves. (How I survive in Texas I do not know!) *I'm trying to remove swearing from my vocabulary (Good Luck!). *I'm the last single in my group of friends. The rest of the turn coats got married. *Sadly, the above friends are now procreating. Now the world will have yet more strange and twisted individuals that will have to go to an Engineering School to survive. *Yoopers do exist. Look on a map. *Marvin the Martian and I have a lot in common. We're both cranky when crossed and generally like our own way. *I will never be a model! (Thank god, that starvation stuff has GOT to be painful!!!). *I am not Fat! (Even though that little voice behind my right ear might tell me that every single day). *I am normal. Whatever that means! *Yes, you can be smart and not be a geek. *I've been told I'm not boring. We'll see. *Much to my irritation, I have been described as Eccentric. *I cannot spell! *Being Single is a frame of mind. *Who said life was fair?
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8 Responses to Thankfullness…

  1. Kuskulana says:

    Happy Thanksgiving Fizz, glad that I met you.
    I like the aquarium video!
    Hugs from Alaska


  2. Cynical says:

    Thank you, Fizz.  I’m flattered that my post was positive for you.  It was 20 years ago and I no longer have anything that was there at the time except for the memories.  I was, three years ago when it was written, deliberately trying to emphasize positive memories.  That’s getting a little easier now.  Not how I wanted it to be or as I expected, but better, given the cards that were dealt me.  I think several of my recent posts have been circling that issue without saying it directly.  I think I understand what you’re saying about living alone, also.  I was terrified of being abandoned for most of my life, but at the same time was happy as a loner.  I suspect that’s where the freedom of choice comes in.  In this ‘ol deterioratin’ brain, it’s OK to live or to be alone, but it has to be on my terms.  I’ve found that not to be true.  I can live alone (with The Boys) and be somewhat satisfied.  Not really happy about it, but able to deal with the unwanted change.  I’m glad you have better.Peace, Doc


  3. Rita says:

    I think you handle your pain pretty good, I doubt I could be as strong as you.
    I’m glad papa is there. I never minded Living in an apartment alone, but I always had
    family near by.
    I loved your fish video! What a beautiful tank you have too!


  4. Ann says:

    Hi Fizz,
    This is a very nice post. Gratitude always helps, doesn’t it?


  5. Beth says:

    Thank you Fizz, for this beautiful post. I know just how you feel about space friends forming a support network. They did that for me during my husband’s illness and subsequent death.  They haven’t let me down since and I am ever grateful.
    You are very special to me (us) and when you feel pain we hurt too.  God Bless you Juli, you are a pleasure to know.


  6. Cindy says:

    Morning Fizz!  Very nice post here and great aquarium video.  Hope you’re doing well today.  I’m still full from my pig-out yesterday. 


  7. Babblelot says:

    I’m glad you posted today. If your ears were ringing, it was me thinking about you. I totally agree about space friends are there for you better than RLF. I am thankful for you Fizz, and so glad we met here on spaces. Your video is pretty cool. One fish looks like she’s gonna burst. Babies perhaps? I must say Joe got me back on track with God also. Well you have a nice day kiddo and hope it’s not such a painful one.


  8. Mountain says:

    Great post Fizz,  Mine was not so positive at the end.  As I get older I find I am getting crabbier at times.  I too am thankful for some of the folks I have met online.  You being one of them.  I also have some new friends at Tagged and one gal is a horse trainer, so she and I are always e-mailing back and forth.  Take care my friend, PennyB


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