This week has been a really rotten week for me. It started with pain… lots and lots of pain. I was in so much pain on Monday that I don’t remember any of it. I was completely and utterly sick with pain. I didn’t fully recover until yesterday. All of this was because I went to a craft/market and walked for 6 hours. I have cancelled my black Friday plans, a tradition that I’ve had with my best mate for the last 8 years.
Tuesday I went to a meeting where I was berated in front of 4 other people. It was very unprofessional behavior all the way around. I was unprofessional when I just turned around and walked out of the meeting. I couldn’t help it. I was so angry it was leave or do something incredibly rash. Unfortunately this has caused several friendships to be ruined.
On Wednesday I had my very first mammogram. It didn’t hurt because I was in so much back and neck pain.
I got a call from my Nurse Practitioner. We’ve been testing for various things over the last 8 years because of medical issues that run in my family. There was one blood test that stood out. A normal Rheumatoid Arthritis blood factor is between 3 and 13. Mine is a 32.6. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA).
This is a very devastating prognosis. This disease may cause me to be crippled by the time I’m 50. I must be very careful. I am going to the RA DR. on December 3 and I intend on telling the DR to consider the most aggressive treatment possible. I am in the position to be diagnosed by this disease when I’ve first gotten it. 2 years ago, my RA blood factor was high, but in the normal range. With that said, an aggressive treatment may stop bone degeneration and loss.
As usual, I don’t intend to let this diagnosis get me. I intend on attacking this disease head on and I will not blink. I can’t afford to be any other way. Any other attitude may cause me to be crippled at a young age and be in constant pain, like I’ve been for the last 4 years.
I do feel like I’ve been run over by a truck. My natural reaction is to say… what the heck else can go wrong. The thing is… I don’t want to go anywhere near that question because it can get so much worse. Add on what every horrible disease you can think of in addition to the RA and then I’d really have something to worry about.
So, that’s been my week, dear friends. I have tried to keep up with your lives and I have tried to comment on your blogs. If I’ve forgotten someone, please don’t be offended. I can’t tell you how much energy it has taken to stop by and say hi.
You all have become such dear friends. You all have been my support system and my cheerleaders and my shoulders to cry on and it means a very great deal. I will likely need you in the future, and will call on your cheerful faces. I will also return the favor and will be there for you in your time of need.
Be blessed, my friends. You are always in my heart and prayers!
— Fizz —
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