The end of a very bad week…

This week has been a really rotten week for me. It started with pain… lots and lots of pain. I was in so much pain on Monday that I don’t remember any of it. I was completely and utterly sick with pain. I didn’t fully recover until yesterday. All of this was because I went to a craft/market and walked for 6 hours. I have cancelled my black Friday plans, a tradition that I’ve had with my best mate for the last 8 years.

Tuesday I went to a meeting where I was berated in front of 4 other people. It was very unprofessional behavior all the way around. I was unprofessional when I just turned around and walked out of the meeting. I couldn’t help it. I was so angry it was leave or do something incredibly rash. Unfortunately this has caused several friendships to be ruined.

On Wednesday I had my very first mammogram. It didn’t hurt because I was in so much back and neck pain.

I got a call from my Nurse Practitioner. We’ve been testing for various things over the last 8 years because of medical issues that run in my family. There was one blood test that stood out. A normal Rheumatoid Arthritis blood factor is between 3 and 13. Mine is a 32.6.  I have Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA).

This is a very devastating prognosis. This disease may cause me to be crippled by the time I’m 50. I must be very careful. I am going to the RA DR. on December 3 and I intend on telling the DR to consider the most aggressive treatment possible. I am in the position to be diagnosed by this disease when I’ve first gotten it. 2 years ago, my RA blood factor was high, but in the normal range. With that said, an aggressive treatment may stop bone degeneration and loss.

As usual, I don’t intend to let this diagnosis get me. I intend on attacking this disease head on and I will not blink. I can’t afford to be any other way. Any other attitude may cause me to be crippled at a young age and be in constant pain, like I’ve been for the last 4 years.

I do feel like I’ve been run over by a truck. My natural reaction is to say… what the heck else can go wrong. The thing is… I don’t want to go anywhere near that question because it can get so much worse. Add on what every horrible disease you can think of in addition to the RA and then I’d really have something to worry about.

So, that’s been my week, dear friends. I have tried to keep up with your lives and I have tried to comment on your blogs. If I’ve forgotten someone, please don’t be offended. I can’t tell you how much energy it has taken to stop by and say hi.

You all have become such dear friends. You all have been my support system and my cheerleaders and my shoulders to cry on and it means a very great deal. I will likely need you in the future, and will call on your cheerful faces. I will also return the favor and will be there for you in your time of need.

Be blessed, my friends. You are always in my heart and prayers!

— Fizz —

© "Fizz" 2008


About Fizz

*I'm a Northern Girl livin' in the South. *I graduated with a BS in Geophysics from Michigan Technological University (MTU). *I have critters: 2 dogs & 1 cat. *I love thunder and rain days. Too much sunshine gets on my nerves. (How I survive in Texas I do not know!) *I'm trying to remove swearing from my vocabulary (Good Luck!). *I'm the last single in my group of friends. The rest of the turn coats got married. *Sadly, the above friends are now procreating. Now the world will have yet more strange and twisted individuals that will have to go to an Engineering School to survive. *Yoopers do exist. Look on a map. *Marvin the Martian and I have a lot in common. We're both cranky when crossed and generally like our own way. *I will never be a model! (Thank god, that starvation stuff has GOT to be painful!!!). *I am not Fat! (Even though that little voice behind my right ear might tell me that every single day). *I am normal. Whatever that means! *Yes, you can be smart and not be a geek. *I've been told I'm not boring. We'll see. *Much to my irritation, I have been described as Eccentric. *I cannot spell! *Being Single is a frame of mind. *Who said life was fair?
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11 Responses to The end of a very bad week…

  1. Babblelot says:

    Oh Fizz, I just don’t know what to do when I hear you are hurting so. RA is not what I wanted to read here. You had mentioned they changed your meds. Is the RA the reason? The other meds were helping you so with the pain. It really saddens me that this is happening to you. It sucks actually! I am here for you and you know that. I hope you ask every question you can think of for that RA Dr. Even ask about the famous lifestyle change this decade talks so much about. Stress is so bad for you.I wondered about you this week and was going to message you. But I didn’t want to bother you. From now on when I have a feeling I won’t second guess but I will bug you to see if you are alright. Maybe a home business is the route to truely think of in the future. I know that when I won’t be able to work at school anymore I do have my shop and internet business to fall back on. Here’s my shoulder kiddo, take care of yourself. Don’t let anyone berate you. God bless.Toodie


  2. Mountain says:

    So sorry, you and I are definitely going through the pain issues, though yours are much worse than mine.  My daughter works at Microsoft in Issaquah.  I have horses you can ride one of mine and do not forget girl friend, I HAVE A CART, so we can go driving together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    This is one reason why we are moving to Eastern Washington, the drier climate should help my aches and pains and they have snow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Take care and best of luck, keep in touch. PennyB


  3. Beth says:

    If you would like me to I will be happy to take on whoever it was that berated you!  I have osteo arthritis in practically every part of my body and at times the pain is agonizing.  Rheumatoid arthritis is 100 timees more painful I have been told.  You will be in my prayers and just holler from Texas to Illinois if I can help you in any way.
    Gentle hug,  Beth


  4. JoAnn says:

    I’ll help Beth take on whoever berated you!  I’m truly sorry to hear that you’re in such pain.  I’m hear if ya wanna talk, cry or beat the h3ll out of somebody!  My thoughts and prayers are with you.  Soft hugs


  5. GreatGranny says:

    Fizz, you deserve much better treatment. I’m so sorry you’re in pain and I will keep you in my prayers. I hope the pain will let up soon .
    hugs, Sidney Ann 


  6. CAROL says:

    ADD me to that us Mich gals gotta stick together ya know..A real convoy of us will show up to kick someone where it hurts for doing such a thing.  LORDIE NO ONE has to sit and listen to someone berate them. I wouldhave walked out too. HOW unfair I tell ya!!! EXCUSE me but if a person could not see that you were being put down then what kind of a real friend are they?? They should have walked out with you or stood by you and defended you. THEIR LOSS..
    DEAR LORD.. hear my prayer. Please let her pain ease up and help her to continue to heal. AMEN.. take care of yourself.  : )


  7. Cynical says:

    When you see your RA doc, be sure to ask if the bloodwork differentiates between fibro and RA.  Both are rheumatoid diseases.  I don’t know the answer, but a rheumatologist certainly should.  I’ll be wishing the best for you.Peace, Doc


  8. Leona says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about all the pain and really sorry about the stupid rudeness. Hooray for you for walking out.You’ve got class. I’ll keep you in my prayers and hope for some relief for you soon.
    I hope tomorrow is a good day and, I hope you have a nice Thanksgiving.


  9. Cindy says:

    Wow, that sounds like a week from hell.  I so admire your attitude.  So many people would curl up and go into full time pitty party mode.  Not Fizz!  You know we’ll be here and you can count on all of us for advice, support and as much help as you’ll ever need.  Hang in there.  This week has got to be better…well, it’ll be shorter for sure!  Soft hugs and love to you.


  10. Patricia says:

    Try to stay calm through all this, the stress won’t be good for you, it never is…do things that are peaceful to you…watch those fish of yours…water is always restful for me…
    so sorry about all the pain in your life, and hope Dec. 3 will give you some good information…
    don’t know why people have to embarrass anyone in front of others…a power thing I think…their is weakness at it’s core…
    you take good care and try to enjoy this Thanksgiving…


  11. Rita says:

    There is no reason for rude behavior, My SIL was just humiliated by her boss in a meeting.
    I just don’t understand how these people don’t care what affect they have on staff by acting this way.
    I am sorry to hear this latest news on your health. YOu have been through the ringer and now this.
    You must be a strong person, I would not be able to cope with all that pain.
    I’m always thinking of you and papa and sending good vibes your way. Hugs


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